How Spartan Racing Helped These 3 Athletes Recover From Eating Disorders
For athletes, the pressure to compete, and — in some cases — look a certain way while doing so, can be taxing on both physical and mental health. Past research reveals that elite athletes may be close to three times more likely to struggle with disordered eating than the general population. Eating disorders and body image disorders affect athletes of all genders, but are statistically more prevalent in women than men. And in a study of female college athletes, it was discovered that one in four had disordered eating, according to the National Eating Disorder Association.
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That means it’s extremely likely that someone close to you could still be in the healing process of eating disorder recovery, and you may not even know it. So we’re celebrating athletes who continue to triumph over their eating and body image disorders with the help of the Spartan community.
Spartan Warriors: 3 Inspiring Body Image and Eating Disorder Recovery Stories
Katie Purcell, founder of Fear Gear OCR
The period of time in which Spartan athlete Katie Purcell struggled with an eating disorder was the worst in her life.
“I had negative scripts running through my head all the time; I was never good enough,” she says. “Letting myself feel happy was always just out of reach, based on losing the next xx pounds or fitting into xx size.”
She felt as though she was just a hollow shell of a person, depriving herself of the healthy lifestyle she deserved — until she started Spartan racing, that is.
She writes in an Instagram post that she was originally self-conscious of her arms, even during her eating disorder recovery, because she saw them as “bulky.” But one of the turning points for her body image was surrounding herself with other Spartan athletes, who “come in all shapes and sizes,” she writes. She can celebrate her strong arms among a group of people who all show their physical and mental strength in completely different ways.
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At the same time, she sometimes sees the media directing potentially problematic messaging toward athletes, with slogans like “Strong is the new skinny.” Of course, the premise of that is empowering, she says: being conventionally “skinny” shouldn’t be the default body type, especially among athletes.
“But, in mainstream media, it seems like the vast majority of female athletes are portrayed with a specific body type: showing off a slender frame and six-pack abs,” Purcell says. "And that’s not always what the picture of 'strong' and 'healthy' should look like.
“It misses a huge piece of the story: that ‘strong’ and ‘healthy’ can look different on different people, due to our body types, genetic makeup, eating and exercise habits. Even if you have the genetic ability to be able to get a six pack, if you choose not to because it’s not worth the lifestyle sacrifices you’d have to make to get there, that is okay too and also healthy."
Vanessa Campos, personal trainer
Though she wasn’t officially diagnosed until 2014, Vanessa Campos began struggling with body dysmorphic disorder in her preteen years. She hid it from her parents, taking diet pills and only eating in front of them during the day. What made matters worse was that as a young dancer, a respected ballet instructor commented that she had talent, but was “in the wrong body.”
“I actually carried that statement with me into adulthood,” Campos recalls.
Fitness started as a stress reliever for Campos, but after becoming a personal trainer, over-exercising was a form of controlling her weight and of self-harm for her. (She later competed in bodybuilding competitions and figure shows, which she felt had an unhealthy impact on her.)
The trainer had a brief respite from body dysmorphic disorder (BDD) during her first pregnancy, but it came back with a vengeance after she had her first son, coupled by extreme social anxiety. After her second son was born, her mental health declined further, so she began seeing a therapist and was officially diagnosed with BDD.
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Now, she has 65 obstacle course races on her race resume, including 11 Trifectas, 3 Age Group podiums, and a 3rd place finish in her Age Group in the Stadion Series under her belt.
“I have never felt more self-assured and confident than I have since becoming deeply involved in the obstacle course racing community,” Campos says.
She does try to keep her distance from mirrors, though, especially having grown up surrounded by mirrors in the dance world, and later as a professional dancer. Instead, she looks at herself through others’ perspective.
“I try to see what others say they see, and I do, when I see my race action photos and can say, ‘Wow! That’s what I really look like?’” she says. “Through my OCR training and racing, and the camaraderie of the community, I have truly found my happy place and my new passion.”
Laura Messner, Entrepreneur and OCR athlete
Laura Messner’s eating disorder began at a young age as well, and she shared a similar sentiment of feeling as though she had to prove herself, even physically. In her mid-teen years, she struggled with binge eating, and did her “purging” through working out.
“That went on for a long time," she says. "I went to a lot of therapy, and really made progress in my mental stability.”
Starting Spartan racing came at a perfect time during her recovery. She gained momentum with her first Trifecta at age 22, the same year she started racing.
“Instead of working out to be skinny, I was working out to rise above the eating disorder and be a role model to other people,” she explains.
Coming from a career as a model and singer — careers that tended to perpetuate her disordered eating — the Trifecta athlete felt new-found support in the Spartan community, especially when she injured her knee in 2012.
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“Someone from the Spartan community called me just to check in on how I was," she says. "That meant more than anything, because in modeling and singing it was just about how much you can give them, and no one was ever checking in on you."
During her injury, Messner also gained 20 pounds, bringing her to her heaviest weight, which she calls her “greatest blessing” in coming to terms with her body image.
“I was able to look in the mirror and tell myself I was beautiful and mean it — that’s when I knew I had made it,” she says. “From then on, I was just unstoppable.”
